I've found a friend who died for me, his name is JESUS.

Mr Lancaster Lee, I have a few questions to ask you. Hope you enlighten me.

1) Why are you so angry and frustrated when you know she went clubbing?
2) Why are you so angry and frustrated when you know she went out with another guy?
3) Why are you able to tolerate in your heart all these?

I hope you can answer me, because i have no answer to those.

I have really been kind of frustrated over these questions. She would also not take any initiative to console or give me comfort because she just don't see the need too. Because she have her right to have her male friends. But apparently, its a guy thing that I feel that those guys are preying her. She would never listen to me. I really hope you do mean what you said by being here for me all the time, as I had been here for you all the time. Sometimes, I just feel my emotions are so naked that I am so easily hurt. But I recover fast.

God has been the medicine to my wounds all the time. I tell you, he is a really powerful. I was hurt the past few times and I just pray to him in tongues and keep on until I feel better emotionally. I thought of telling her how I feel but in the end, I would lose the arguement, although my friends know that I am a good debater, women always have the upper hand. And neither could I speak to my paretns or cousins or nephews. The only road is God. I thank you God for helping me time and time again.

Perhaps, God is making a point to me that maybe she is not the one that he had chosen for me in my life. Because God had send so many guys to her side, pursposely making me miserable. I think I got God's point finally. I can eliminate one, but I don't want to spend my life eliminating.

This could be one of the lowest point in my year 2007, but with God, I gonna get through this.

*I may keep quiet, but you just do not know how painful I am behind this big guy here.